I can't believe how much random thoughts I have written. These would definitely describe the workings of my mind and they have made my living pretty much easier to interpret. They might sometimes be downright stupid or probably too angry, but I am just being true.
1. I believe my life is a big mess of things, I have decided to collect over time. Every bits and pieces of torment, joy and pain I took pride in. Life is hard, but who says it's not worth living?
2. I've always tried to live out people's expectations of ME. Sometimes, I just want to SCREW UP and FAIL but I still choose not to. Failure is not what breaks me, but the successes I have achieved. Somehow I felt I AM NEVER ENOUGH, and I ALWAYS HAD TO DO MORE. It's so frustrating.
3. I was never good at conforming. I never found the reason to anyway. I think that's why God gave us free will, to believe and do things the way we want to... we just tend to slack off at times and we never exercise our full potential.
4. The fear of losing control is dangerous as the disease itself. Fear keeps us doubting instead of hoping. Looking down instead of up.